My Official Departure.

[• Echo]

I am sorry.

Really, this has gone on far too long.  I know I just disappeared without a reason, without really saying anything about it, and I left themagus in charge.  But, I'm owning up to it.

For quite a while, I myself did not understand why I was losing muse, losing will to come on and post.  I found another, extremely advanced magic-based horse rpg on Proboards. It was, extremely active, extremely advanced, extremely well-kept, extremely original, and honestly, I loved it. So, so much. That, in itself pulled me from here.
But, it wasn't the only thing.  That site, just, died.  No warning.  No nothing.  Just a note from the admin saying it had become a burden and he had deleted it, even in all its activity.

That's kinda what I did.

And, I get it now.  I love writing, I really, really do.  And there's just something special about being able to write back and forth about a character who isn't real, but who you can put some of yourself into. You create special bonds, develop creativity, enhance your writing skills, and find the centre of your inspiration.  And I did.  I have, several things that inspire me. My horses. College. The life I have ahead of me.  My friends.  My church.  My fiancé. My faith.  

And I realized.  The more time I spend rp'ing, the more I draw myself away from what inspires me.  Where can I find muse if I literally lose the inspiration because I am trying so, so hard to draw from it?  

And I was so, so depressed because of it.  I was losing the things that mattered most to me, the things that made my life beautiful, the One that made it worthwhile.

I really hope you all understand why I am saying this.  Roleplaying was a wonderful thing for me; it got my stress out and helped me find myself in the words I wrote and read. But, there is something else that does that same exact thing for me. And, I realized: it was never writing that helped me find myself.  It was my inspirations. The inspirations I was pulling myself away from, because of writing.

I'm not saying this is the same for everyone.  But I know it was for me. I would easily become obsessed with roleplaying, with reading and formulating replies, with thinking up new, wondrous characters. I loved it.
 But I was obsessed.

Addicted.

And so this is me finally pulling away, and cutting off. I did love roleplaying; but sometimes, the things you love most can also hurt you the most, and I was putting roleplaying above the things that really should have always mattered most.

I'm sorry for leaving you guys without a warning or true reason. I know that this doesn't affect most of you, but I thought you deserved a reason for my absence. I probably will still pop in like I have been doing, I love reading through some of your guys' threads; but status hidden, of course, because I'll never let myself get back into this again, or at least not like I used to obsess over it. I'm putting my life first; my friends, my family, my health problems, my job, my education, my fiancé, and, most importantly, my faith.

This is me saying goodbye. I made some very good friends here.  I knew a lot of great people, a lot of whom have also gone inactive. TamelessSilence, DayDreamer, Eris, Spritz, Shiori, Tayssi, Magus, and, last but certainly not least, LoveOnHerArms. You all have helped me so much, and I'm sure you all know it.  I honestly would love to add probably the whole site onto that list; even though some of us have had our disagreements and problems, you've helped me grow through that, and I thank you all.  I wish all you people the best of luck in life, wherever you are. And you 8 people, though I only know of three of you who still come on, I love you dearly.  You were great, really, truly great friends, and I'm certain you still are.  

I'll miss this, but not as much as I've missed my inspirations.  I hope you all can understand and forgive me. But I am now on my way, for good.


-with lots of love-

• Ꮭyrik • Σcho • Jewel •

[themagus]

Will miss you, drop by every now and then, will you?

[Soul Hunter]

I wish you well Echo and we will miss you dearly, hopefully everything will fall into place for you once more and do pop in every now and then like Magus says.

[Tayssi]

I'll miss you, Echo. But life comes first. I just hope you stay happy where ever you may be, and don't forget to come on from time to time, as Themagus had said.

[Guest]

Bye Echo, you where a great writter and I loved how great you where. Your post were always fun to read, I wish you the best in life. Take care and dont forget to say hi every so often.

[Guardian Angel]

Good bye Echo, you will be missed.
Summer sends her farewell to her best friend, Lupin..

[Greed]

I haven't told many people this but I suppose it's fine to say. I used to be Shiori but I left for certain reasons. However I did come back because of the people I'd left behind. Even then I didn't really reconnect with everyone I had previously talked to. Thankful I was of help and guidance and friendship to you and it really is sad to see you go but I understand why you're doing it and your reasons are acceptable. I hope you find everything you're looking for and get back the inspiration you'd lost, and just be happier in general. Even if you aren't here anymore, I feel I can safely say all of us will be content if you have made yourself happy. So stay that way ^_^
Again, I'm sorry to see you go, and I also apologize for not talking to you much since I rejoined, but I wish you all the best. Take care and see ya around every now and again

[horsegodess]

It's been real Echo. Have a nice life and I hope you continue your writing elsewhere or at sometime, but whenever it works for you. Your presence will be missed!

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